Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Another about me post...
I'm tired of analyzing myself, so I turned to others for help...This is from an astrology site here...
Love is seldom easy for the Gemini and this mainly stems from them being more than one person. They have many needs and finding the one right person can be somewhat of a struggle. Not to mention that they aren’t the most patient of signs and if things don’t look good from the outset they will very often move on straight away. This can sometimes mean that they miss out on what could have been a good relationship, which is a shame. I myself am a Gemini so I know the kind of turmoil love can bring. We have, I think, too much, far too much emotion mixed with a fair bit of intellect. This means that we constantly try and use logic to solve love and let’s face it, love is not logical.
Gemini all have one amazing and totally unconscious ability to be whoever they want to be. Every-time they meet someone new they be dazzle them with being that persons dream woman or man. It is quite astonishing really. But it’s true.
The Gemini needs mental stimulation far more than anything physical. It is a need that must be met by anyone who is to take on this airy dual character. Most people are turned on by peoples eyes, or bums! Not the Gemini, unless you say something witty and intelligent on the first meeting then it wouldn’t matter if you were Brad Pitt, the Gemini will simply look straight through you and then you will meet one of the twins. I say one of, many people say that the Gemini has two separate characters, but from a lot of experience and being one myself, I say we have several. And not all of them are easy to control and to be honest not all that pleasant either. It is, I’m afraid, when one of these twins pops out that us Geminis are at are worst.
Another post that I like is on a Horse zodiac Gemini...
Imagine living on the fastest roller coaster in the world and that will give you some idea of what it is like for the Gemini/Horse when he/she is in love. These people can get hurt very badly as they have an almost naive sense of love. They believe in fairy tales and dream of living happily ever after with their beloved. As we all know the real world just isn’t like that and as a consequence the Gemini/Horse really does suffer a lot of emotional turmoil and pain. Which is a shame, as these people really do have so much to give in a relationship; all they need is to find the right person. Once they have then this is when the Gemini/Horse really comes into their own.
They are loyal and protective and will go to the ends of the earth for the ones they love as when these people fall in love it is for life and although they may be partial to the odd bit of flirting there certainly won’t be any affairs going on. I don’t think anyone can ever really understand the depth to this person’s emotion; they are hypersensitive to everything and are emotionally very high maintenance. This person needs to feel secure so they can truly be themselves, to the Gemini Horse the words ‘I love you’ mean so much and this can lead to them being truly hurt by the wrong sort of people whose only interest is in what they can get. Gemini/Horses love surprise dates, the love people to be unique in their ideas as this means that someone has really thought about them. When it is a loved one’s birthday or at Christmas time the Gemini/Horse will go out of their way to make the love of their life smile, to this person that is what life’s all about.
I checked my birth chart, and it turns out that my rising sign is Pisces... So, I did more reading... And I was damn shocked... Freaking true... Anyway, going to sleep le... Will read more tomorrow...
Posted by iChigoMado at 11:59 PM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Boiling Mad
I hate it when people show false concern just because they fucking need my help...I went back to school last Monday after a few days of Self-Declared LOA... In actual fact, I chabotted Photography on wed, and after that, on thurs, I started coughing... Badly... So, being the socially responsible being that I am, I didn't want to go to school to pass the cough around... I missed school on Thurs and Fri, and finally, went out on Sat to have a 'K-box' session + STM Session... (This reminded me... Haven't pay Noel yet...) I was still coughing, but it seemed to be recovering, and there wasn't any other symptoms, so I figured that it couldn't be H1N1... I stayed home on Sunday, because I didn't feel like going out...
Seeing as I'm finally recovering, I thought that I'll attend school on Monday (I've missed so many days)... I even met Meryl by chance on Monday on the train, and discussed Shou's LOA while walking to school together... Morning went by normally, and it was a boring colouring lesson on photoshop... Closer to 1st break, I was thinking... Why is every Monday so cold? I thought that it was just the DPI Lab, and that because it was raining... I ordered a huge bowl of soup together with my duck rice... (Didn't finish it, cuz it felt too salty to me, and that's a first...) Went back to class, continued with boring lesson, blah blah blah...
At around 4.30pm, I refreshed Leo,and remembered that I had to do the second temperature taking... My temperature: 37.7°C... I was coughing, and running a fever... I thought that it's just because I'm wearing a jacket the whole day, the thicker one that I bought in China, so I just went ahead with the hC peeps, wandering to E2, and then, walked to Causeway Point... By then, I began to feel a headache setting in... I abhor headaches... I've no idea why, but I was stubborn that day... I went ahead, and eat dinner (duck rice again, and felt that it's too salty again), and then proceeded to go to the library... Again, the stubborn streak... I think it's cuz I refuse to believe that despite SDLOA, I got it the day I went back to school...
Whatever... That night, I felt every single bump of the MRT Tracks from Woodlands to Hougang, and every step I took from Hougang MRT to my own home... I checked my temperature again: 38.6°C...
The next day, went to Hougang Polyclinic... Did a throat swipe thingy, and was given Panadols and Cough Syrup... And a 7-day Mc... Applied for LOA when I reached home...
And the doc said not to be too close with the ppl living tgt, so I became the Guardian of the Living Room...
Improved bit by bit, with lesser headache and fever, till yesterday... Suddenly, 37.9°C again, and my cough worsened... I started having coughing fits, and then I nearly exploded on my laptop... Lucky I had pretty quick reflexes... Ran all the way to the toilet... I coughed till I puked, and my hands were all slimy... I guess from phlegm? I have a disgusting analogy for that, but I'll list it at the end, so people can avoid it... Anyway, I had 3 more such explosions...
Until here, I've pretty much cooled down from whatever I was mad about, but now, I'm heating up again... GRRR!
I was finally nodding off, having coughed all the way, when suddenly my pathetic excuse of a paternal figure shook me, and asked if I'm feeling better... I said No, and told him about me coughing till I puked... Then he asked if I was going to see the doctor today... I said, No, cuz I still have plenty of medicine left... I still wasn't pissed off, cuz I thought that it's concern with bad timing... Then he insisted that I go to the doctor today... I asked him why, and he said, no la, you coughing a lot mah, see doctor get more medicine... I said, no need, enough to last till Monday... He continued to say, see doctor today, get 4 bottles of cough syrup, and try to get the stronger ones... I said that, strong medicines need another medicine to protect the stomach and whatever, so cannot just buy like that... He continued,I know you can one... Just tell them you want to buy... I got irritated and asked him why can't I just wait till it's time for my appointment? Then he replied, Cuz I want the medicine...
I WAS FUCKING IRRITATED... If he wanted the medicine, why can't he just go see the doctor himself?! And he doesn't even have a cough! But because I was frustrated, I brushed off his request and gave diplomatic Umms and Oks...
Then this morning, I woke up, the fever was gone, but the cough was worse... I still had like an eighth of the cough syrup left, enough to last me till Monday, so I took a bit more, 15ml, instead of 10ml... I took the extra dosages in the morning and afternoon... Then I stoned on my com watching shows and trying to keep myself occupied... At around 8, I cough-puked again, and this time, it wasn't just phlegm... My dinner came up... I went to take my medicine even though it's not time for it yet... BUT! I couldn't find my cough syrup... Turns out, it got hidden behind the hot water flask... And, there's not even enough to fill up the 5ml spoon... I raged cold, then hot, then cold again...
I had told him that I was coughing so badly that I'm puking, and had told him there's no more cough medicine at home(he asked me a few days before), and without caring for my well being, he finished my cough syrup... So am I supposed to puke my way through tomorrow? And the rest of tonight? How am I supposed to sleep? Am I to crash in the toilet, like what he used to do after getting high? I don't know if you all will feel that I'm reacting badly, but I don't regret my reactions/feelings... To me, that's worse than not being around for us when we were growing up... It's a choice he made, him over me... And I don't even think that that is for his cough... I've heard of cough syrup abusing...
But I digress... Continuously, for 2 nights, I've been exposed to this kind of shit, while feeling shitty inside as well, and I'm sick of it... ARGH! I'm gonna have to dig around the medicine cupboard to see if there's any more old cough syrup... Otherwise, I'm might just die from dehydration...
Nevermind... If I'm gonna die, I'll come back and make sure he never gets peace... I might forget, but I never forgive... And this issue? I'll never forget...
The disturbing analogy is below... Don't see if you like fishing...
I went on my first fishing trip in China, and to take a picture, I had to hold the fish in my hands... And the phlegm I puked up reminded of my hands after I picked up the fish... Just that I had more slime than when I held the fish... Lol...
Posted by iChigoMado at 8:08 PM
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Stupid RP
The long pause was due to my hard disk (external one) being spoiled... All those photos I took in china was in it... =(But till now, I still haven't got around to getting it fixed... Lazy~~~
Anyway a rant here, and my conspiracy theory...
It has been some days (22 June to 2 July = 10 days) since RP had had it's first case of H1N1... And within this short time frame, the numbers of H1N1 positive students/staff grew from 1 to 91... From the beginning till now, 90 extra cases in 10 days, you do the Math and you'll come up with the average of 9 cases each day...
The school's action before anyone caught the virus: Compulsory temperature taking with facis watching, with those heat camera sensory thingy to prevent feverish people from entering RP,with different coloured stickers to identify the healthy people, and even blocking all the doors and posting guards there to prevent people from entering without validating their temperature first.
The School's Action when 2 Year One students caught H1N1:
Grant Leave of Absence to the entire year one cohort for a week to contain the virus, temperature taking(free and easy, lol), and that's it. Oh, and the current prisoner status.
Notice the difference?
Even with the Year Ones under LOA, the outspread continued... Wasn't the containment of year ones supposed to prevent the outspread? If the year ones are not in school to spread the virus, how did the rest of the school begin to get the flu?
With the year one classes closed, the only way it could spread to the rest of the school is through it's widely acclaimed Eco-friendly air recycling methods... Even if the virus is supposed to perish in 8 hours after leaving a human host, there's enough time for it to be recycled out to the rest of the school, where there are more than enough human hosts around... All the virus needs to do is to land on our laptop... All humans fidget, and while typing on our laptop, we could have touched our mouths, or our noses when we fidget...
Well, the school refuses to grant LOA for the rest of the people, even when it's evident that the flu virus is going around our enclosed campus like a rampant rhino (or whatever animal you feel like using in this example)...
Even without the difference in attitude regarding the flu, notice the different in their treatment of it's students?
Well, I shall share my idea of why RP is not closed yet...
"The principle thinks of RP as a business..." is my conclusion...
How did I reach this seemingly random conclusion? The idea was formed after reading through the New Alerts that the school spammed us with...
'Republic Polytechnic is not your usual school - it treats its students like customers.' That was the headlines of that article. Our school was voted as being one of the top few 'customer-oriented' companies...
So, with students being customer oriented, we would have to assume that the school is earning money from its customer, no? Proceeding from that, I got an explanation about why the school is paranoid about the year ones, and slack with the other levels...
Basically, the year ones are equivalent to 5 more semesters worth of income for the school, and their cohort is the biggest, the school must work speedily and thoroughly to ensure the school's eventual survival...
As for the Year Twos, there's 3 more semesters, but it's a smaller batch compared to year ones, so it can be considered as a form of negotiable income.
Now for the finale, Year threes, we only have 1 more semester, and we are the tiniest batch, so, compared to the year ones, the income is minimal... In words without embellishments, we can go and die as the school doesn't give a shit about our 1 semester worth income.
Which is why, even though the email rant that the principal sent said that granting LOA-ing to the entire school is not possible, and that they wouldn't know how long they would have to grant the LOA to us for, they LOA-ed the entire Year 1 cohort immediately when they saw that the year 1s are getting sick...
In my opinion, even if it's the normal strain of flu, this kind of outspread status should warrant the closure, to thoroughly clean the entire school...
Posted by iChigoMado at 8:19 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Trip
Nvm... Ignore that other post... Just that I was having a crappy day... Didn't have any inspiration to take any good photos during photography today, and then had to smoke through the presentation... It happened yesterday also... During 2D lessons... 2D is usually my better module, but yesterday, I guess I was stuck with the holiday moods, and couldn't complete the bloody program... And then I was kenna pang seh-ed... Some asked me if I wanted to chabot with him, and I packed and was ready to go, and he told me he didn't want to leave after all... Continuously 2 days of crappish standard work... Like I said in a few post back, I don't like to fail at anything... Even if it's not perfect work, at the very least I want to complete my work...Whatever... I have to stop thinking of that...
An update here...
I'm leaving on a flight this Friday afternoon to Shanghai, China... Flight SQ836, 29 May 2009, 1725 hrs from Terminal 3... Visiting my uncle and his family, for the entire duration of the holidays.... Yay~
Arriving back in Singapore on 14 Jun 2009 at 2150 hrs on flight SQ833....
A lot of things have been planned for this trip, places to go, sights to see, and food to eat! My favorite kind of cuisine, Korean! We would be going back to the restaurant we visited last time, and I'm gonna order the Cold Noodle again! And the roadside store, Shitake Mushrooms! And the Xiao Long Bao!!!! OMG!!! Hungry now...
I've been collecting favorite colours of everyone... Lol... Just to see what colors are liked more than others... Lol...
Meryl: Turquoise/Teal/Green whatever you choose to name it
Shou: Purple
Sky: Sky Blue/ Vintage Yellow
Andrew: White
Shafiq: Orange
Fifi: Pastel Blue/ Sky Blue
Raudha: Dark Red
Vernon: Dark Blue
Baoyan: Pink
Xinhui: Blue
Linus: Blue
Kenneth: Red
Zha: Red
Noel: Blue
Jo: Pink
Posted by iChigoMado at 4:42 PM
I just found something else that I hate...Last time, when I'm quiet, I'm said to be weird, and is asked to be more verbal...
Now, when I'm louder, I'm told to quieten down... And the thing is that I'm not sure if they mean it seriously or not... Cuz the words Shut Up and Seriously are words of joke around here...
Haiz... I don't know what to think already... Like I told Sky, the feeling of being expandable is ever present... Sian...
Posted by iChigoMado at 4:32 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009
Phobias
Just woke up from a weird nightmare... Things that I hate and fear were experienced over and over again... I guess it's because I read a horror-ish fanfic before I went to bed... Since I'm awake, might as well list some while their still fresh in my mind...Note: It's not that I have these phobias, just that these describes my fears and hatred...
Atelophobia -- fear of imperfection
Because of what is expected of me since young, I dread not meeting the "perfect" targets...
Kakorrhaphiophobia -- fear of failure or defeat
Similar reason as above... Because I feel that if you've failed someone, s/he wouldn't bother about you again...
Automysophobia -- fear or dislike of being dirty
No specific reasons, just that I hate being dirty...
Social Anxiety -- Comprises of having to make "small talk" at parties, being the center of attention and being watched while doing something.
It actually comprises more than that, but these 3 are more applicable to me... It's not stated, but I think that my fear of being disliked should also in this category...
Not that I have this one, but I think that this is funny...
Phobophobia -- fear of fear itself
LOL!
Roughly these are my fears, that I had experienced over and over again in that bloody dream... Maybe now I'll be able to sleep...
Posted by iChigoMado at 1:23 AM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Flowers
I was reading this Ebook about close up photography... And I saw this flower that I think is BEAUTIFUL!And then I decided to research about flowers... Cuz I'm half awake... Lol...
My birth flower: Rose
Long a symbol of love and passion, the rose is rich with history and meaning. Aphrodite, the Greek goddess of love, presented a rose to Eros, and Cleopatra lured Mark Antony with a room knee-deep in rose petals. Though each color offers a distinct meaning – and the number of stems offers a singular message – this June birth flower signifies beauty and perfection.
Doesn't really describe me though...
Flower that I like: Grape Hyacinth
Symbolizing sport or play in the language of flowers, hyacinth represent constancy, while blue hyacinth expresses sincerity and constancy.
I also like February's flower...
FEBRUARY: IRIS
It should come as no surprise that the iris's three upright petals symbolize faith, valor and wisdom. With its majestic purple hues and soaring slender stem, this dignified and graceful February birth flower dates back to Ancient Greece, when Iris, the messenger of the gods and the personification of the rainbow (the Greek word for Iris), acted as the link between heaven and earth
Another flower that I like: Tulip
The meaning of tulips is generally perfect love. Like many flowers, different colors of tulips also often carry their own significance. Red tulips are most strongly associated with true love, while purple symbolizes royalty. The meaning of yellow tulips has evolved somewhat, from once representing hopeless love to now being a common expression for cheerful thoughts and sunshine. White tulips are used to claim worthiness or to send a message of forgiveness. Variegated tulips, once among the most popular varieties due to their striking color patterns, represent beautiful eyes.
I love the pink and yellow varieties... They are so "Just Nice"... Lol... Not too big, not too small, not too perfect, not too "jum-po-rojak"... Lol...
